Me, Myself and I

Of all the things I believed in
I just wanna get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I’m hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I’m starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can’t live a day without you
Closing my eyes
And you chase my thought away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it’s not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what’s yours and I want what’s mine
I want you
But I’mn not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I’ve tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THe past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I’m lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don’t see
But it’s one missed step
You’ll slip before you know it
And there doesn’t seem a way to be redeemed

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…
[2X]

[Intro:]
I don’t understand why
See it’s burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don’t mean I want to
What I’m trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1:]
It’s gonna burn for me to say this
But it’s comin from my heart
It’s been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don’t think you’re gonna change
I do but you don’t
Think it’s best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I’m hurting baby, I ain’t happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus:]
When your feeling ain’t the same and your body don’t want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain’t jumpin’ like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it’s best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it’s over
We know that it’s through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2:]
Sendin’ pages I ain’t supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain’t the same by myself
Callin’ her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It’s the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it’s too late
I know she ain’t comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don’t know what I’m gonna do
Without my booo
You’ve been gone for too long
It’s been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin’ till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus:]
When your feeling ain’t the same and your body don’t want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain’t jumpin’ like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon’learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it’s over
We know that it’s through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge:]
I’m twisted cuz one side of me is tellin’ me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I’m twisted cuz one side of me is tellin’ me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown:]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin’?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh
So many days, so many hours
I’m still burnin’ till you return

[Chorus:]
When your feeling ain’t the same and your body don’t want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain’t jumpin’ like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it’s best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it’s over
We know that it’s through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Only tell me that you still want me here
When you wander off out there
To those hills of dust and hard winds that blow
In that dry white ocean alone

Lost out in the desert
You are lost out in the desert

To stand with you in a ring of fire
I’ll forget the days gone by
I’ll protect your body and guard your soul
From mirages in your sight

Lost out in the desert

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I’ll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I’ll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the Sahara

If that’s the only place where you can leave your doubts
I’ll hold you up, and be your way out
And if we burn away, I’ll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the Sahara

Just a wish and I will cover your shoulders
With veils of silk and gold
When the shadows come and darken your heart
Leaving you with regrets so cold

Lost out in the desert

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I’ll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes, I’ll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the Sahara

If that’s the only place where you can leave your doubts
I’ll hold you up, and be your way out
And if we burn away, I’ll pray the skies above
For snow to fall on the Sahara

For snow to fall on the Sahara (x3)

On my own,
Pretending he’s beside me
All alone
I walk with him ’til morning
Without him , I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way, I close my eyes and he has found me

In the rain,
The pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it’s only in my mind,
That i’m talking to myself ,
And not to him
And although,
I know that he is blind
Still I say, there’s a way for us

I love him,
but when the night is over,
He’s gone,
The river’s just a river

Without him,
the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers

I love him,
but everyday i’m learnin’
All my life,
I’ve only been pretending

Without me
His world will go on turnin’
The world is full of happinness that I have never known

I love him…I love him…I love him but only on my own

I thought I fell in love once, but how I quickly came to see.
True Love is overrated, not meant for one like me.
I left myself open, entrenched and blinded by love’s design.
Engulfed by its passion, utterly lost in space in time.
Knowing the end was inevitable, still I made this dubious choice.
And felt a pain immeasurable, when I listened to my heart’s voice.
What is love but a feeling, a word often used in jest.
An ephemeral emotion, not worth the time to develop and invest.
A captivating story, ending only where it starts.
An all-too predictable cycle, this game of broken hearts.
Though yielding temporary happiness, it ends in bitter grief.
The absence of all hope and faith, of comfort and relief.

The sky weeps with me

The leaves stay still

Waiting for something to happen…

In this world where the unexpected is guaranteed,

There is nothing else to do but wait.

I know not what the gray clouds tell me,

all i know is that i die everyday.

A single white butterfly saunters amidst the rain,

drenched, fleeting, lost…

oblivious to the heavy load it carries on its wings.

The rain…

killing it slowly,

still…

it goes from flower to flower,

hoping…

someone is destined for me.

A brown leaf falls slowly to the ground…

it lost its courage to hold on

to the one tree who gave it life…

for everything has its end.

The rain drowns the sound of the world

It only knows its pain

Neverending, forever marking where it fell…

A stone

no matter how hard,

slowly cracks before the pounding rain,

weakening its defenses against the constant battering of bitter sadness.

As darkness fell,

the rain continues to fall.

Everything is bathed with its sorrow.

Even the stars refused to shine

And the moon lost its light.

Dawn breaks and a day starts anew.

There is no more rain.

Only the puddles of sweet remembrance left behind.

Soon, this too will be gone

As sunlight attempts to dry the tears once shed.

Once again, the rain…

though it is unseen,

has never gone.

It remains in the sky so blue,

getting ready to fall again.

For the rain knew,

that it will never be part of the sky,

nor be part of the earth,

it will always be in the midst of whoever has the courage to be a butterfly…   

I remember when life was small, when nothings turned to everything,

When acceptance was what mattered most,

And when if you looked in the center of the universe,

You’d find me.

I remember walking my path alone, as a wolf in the snow covered timbers.

When each creature instead hunted me,

And no one could be trusted.

I remember the pain the lone wolf endured,

When blows fell low and all said no,

And the wolf limped away, far into the tundra.

I remember losing faith, the wolf in the snow asking to die.

When he collapsed on the ground asking mercy from the sky.

And if you looked in deep the most frozen, desolate, frostbitten forest in the universe,

You’d find me.

I remember finding him,

When the sky picked up the wolf,

And for the first time in ages his heart was warm.

I remember life anew,

When “I” was dead and “we” were born,

And with each step appeared people who cared.

I remember coming back, a ghost of a wolf no more.

When I became a reality,

And those who I held dear protected me from transparency.

I remember finding love,

When life could be no better, when I held her dear,

And I was loved back.

I remember finding a purpose,

When devotion became more than a word, when legacy was the goal,

And I longed to leave my footprint in the sand.

I remember now,

Where life is about extending your hand,

And if you looked in the center of the universe,

I can’t say who you would find,

But if you turned around, and  let a flashlight shine,

And looked for a wave and a smile,

You’d find me.